I officially "called it" on Labor Day of 2013. I had a lot of manage, but the key was that I could manage all the medicines and diets. I no longer struggled daily with that horrid gastritis pain. Once I felt 100% better, my last year of high school began to fly by. The math class at the community college presented its challenges, but it was a great way to prepare me for college academics. In October of 2013, my mom and I were the (very proud!) co-coordinators of Making Tracks for Celiacs: Des Moines--the first ever celiac disease awareness walk in Des Moines. After months of planning, the walk was a huge success! My mom and I were interviewed in the Des Moines Register and KCCI Channel 8 broadcast live from the walk and interviewed me. Over $4,000 was raised and 150 people participated. It was a dream come true! The year of 2013 ended and 2014 began. This was going to be a big year for me: I would graduate high school and go to college. I was very thankful when I finished high school for several reasons. First, I made it a whole year of high school without something medically bad happening.
Freshman year: mono, c.diff, and celiac disease.Sophomore year: surgery, Iowa City, hospitalized, IBS, and gastroparesis
Junior year: gastritis
Understandably, I was quite intimidated by what could possibly happen during my senior year! Thankfully, nothing happened. I was proud of myself for finishing high school on time and with good grades.
Where Am I Now?
These days, I am feeling great! I will occasionally have a day where I do everything I'm supposed to, but I just don't feel good. That comes with having four chronic digestive disorders. However, I would say that I feel well 95% of the time! My diet is still restricted but much less than what it used to be. I currently avoid gluten, dairy, meat, bananas, coconut, tomatoes, and onions. As for medicines, I still take amitriptyline and prescription prevacid. I have completely weaned myself off of cholestryamine because it was making my stomach hurt after I took it. Not living with all the nasty side effects has greatly improved my quality of life! I also take a vitamin, probiotic, Miralax, and peppermint oil capsules.
I can run anywhere between three to four miles three times a week, and I still enjoy it just as much as I did when I started. To date, I have participated in seven 5k races.
This summer, I am working (still at the daycare!) and running a lot. I recently returned from a trip to Texas to visit my cousin and her incredible family. My cousin has her own health issues and has been a constant source of friendship at support! I will turn 19 next Sunday, and shortly after that I will embark on my latest adventure: college. I will be attending Iowa State University for dietetics. I plan on becoming a pediatric clinical dietitian after I graduate. Just the thought of having the opportunity to help kids who are sick and in hospitals fills me with joy. Going to college is a big step for me, and I would be lying if I said that I wasn't nervous. In addition to managing everything that is college, I will be bringing along my restricted diet, medicines, and health problems. I believe that God will give me the strength to manage all of this, just like He has given me strength to manage chronic illness at a young age.Final Glances
Before I publish this last post, there are a few more things I want to say. My health journey was unexpected, chronic, complicated, and rough. At the same time, there are so many blessings that have come from it.
My faith: this is something that has definitely increased since I got sick. I have a small notebook filled with encouraging verses from the Bible that I read every day when I was sick. It was amazing to experience the amount of peace and comfort I got from these verses. Multiple times one of these verses would "randomly" pop into my head in a time that I needed to hear something encouraging, comforting, or reassuring. I have now personally seen how God works "all things for the good of those who love Him" and that He does have a plan for us. God has placed incredible people in my life, and it's amazing to think about how His plan has played out through all sorts of people. All of the blessings/lessons I've learned listed below would never have occurred if I hadn't gotten sick. Yes, living with all that I have and experiencing everything that I've been through was not pleasant. Do I wish it would have never happened? No. If I could go back in time and magically prevent all of this from happening, I wouldn't! As I mentioned above, I want to be a dietitian. I would never in a million years have decided on that career choice if I hadn't been sick enough to require a dietitian's help. I would have probably ended up as a speech language pathologist or a personal trainer, but I am SO excited for my future as a dietitian! I love how I can finally see a little bit of God's great plan for me.
My family: I have formed very close relationships with my family, especially my mom and grandparents, during my health journey. My mom was (and still is) my constant source of support. If I don't feel good or something isn't going right, she is the first person I turn to. She can always cheer
me up and make me feel better. I'm so thankful for the memories, both good and bad, that we've gone made and the experiences that we've gone through together. I know that I wouldn't have made it out of my health crisis without her! My grandparents have also been so supportive. It started with them baking me gluten-free treats and making family gatherings "Sarah Safe". Since then, my grandpa and I text each other every night and we all enjoy being together. Both of my grandparents are inspirations to me; they've been through so much but yet they are the kindest people I know. I've also deeply bonded with my precious cat, Oliver. He's always been my baby, but when I got sick he became even closer to me. He always comforted me when I was upset by purring, rubbing his face against my hand, and rolling around on the floor to make me laugh. He even kneads his paws on my stomach when I don't feel good! I have also developed close relationships with two of my cousins, Lisa and Leda. We don't live close, but we are certainly close at heart! All three of my dad's siblings have also showed so much care and concern through my health journey. I never felt like I was going through this alone; I could always feel the support and prayers that were coming from my spread-across-the-country family!
My doctors and medical team: I talk a lot in my blog about my doctors, nurses, and other medical professionals I've interacted with. I think if I would have been younger or older, the medical staff I had wouldn't have mattered as much. However, I was at such a vulnerable age: 15-18 years old. I spent more time in waiting rooms and with the doctor than I did at friends' houses. Therefore, my nurses and doctors became my friends. I now consider them family. Each doctor has made a difference in my life and for that I will be forever thankful. Of course, there's always that doctor. Even though Dr. Satan did absolutely nothing to improve my quality of life, he did teach me things. He taught me to appreciate the good doctors. He taught me to advocate for myself, even if the "doctor" didn't believe a word I said. He taught me how to stand tall and strong in the midst of a raging storm. This doesn't mean that I speak well of him because I had to learn all of these things thanks to him. When I look back at my time with him, it doesn't go well for me. I know he has affected other patients in a similar way. There are days when I want to report him to the Iowa Board of Medicine or blackmail him, but then I remind myself of two things my mom told me: "God will take care of people like him" and "The best revenge is you feeling better because of doctors in Des Moines."
My mom and I regularly get together with Nurse T. for lunch or walks. She is such a good friend and an inspiration. My friendship with Nurse T. is the perfect example of one of the greatest blessings that has come from my health journey.
Thank YOU: When I started this blog, I didn't know if it would be successful. I figured the only people who would read it would be my family and friends. As of today, however, over 3,800 people in 12 different countries have read this blog! Thank you for showing interest in my blog. As I'm about to mention, writing this blog has been crucial for me to move forward from my health journey.
Things I've Learned: I have learned that nothing tastes as good as feeling good, sometimes all you need to do is read a Harry Potter book, it's okay to cry, peppermint does wonders on a troubled tummy, never tell a sick person how terrible they look, understanding the family tree of the British Monarchy is a great distraction, cats provide great comfort, some GI doctors look up so many buttholes that they become one, not every doctor will be as great as mine so I thank God for my doctors, coffee is a laxative, gluten can be hidden in anything and everything, people will say stupid stuff because they are ignorant, a walk around the lake can mentally transform a person, and everyone has a story, baggage, and pains that they will always carry with them.
When a traumatic event happens, there are five stages of mourning: shock, denial, anger, depression, and acceptance. As I look back on my health journey, I can clearly see the times when I went through these stages. I can also see when I went through these stages after I felt better. The psychological recovery after the physical recovery of chronic illness is just as important. It took me a while to learn how to function without feeling sick. After I discovered this, I had a hard time accepting and moving on from my recently won battle. When I started this blog, I just wanted to share my story and maybe help some people. I had no idea that writing my health story would be such a cleansing process. I had to dig down deep and re-live the past few years. This was not easy to do, but after I published each post, I had this wonderful feeling of peace. Yes, bad things have happened to me but it's okay. I survived, I am alive, and I am thriving. I am living the life that I dreamed about when I was sick; I can run, work, and do what I want to do. I'm even going to college soon! I will never be able to forget everything that has happened to me, but I've come to the point where I don't dwell on what has happened. I'm a total sentimentalist so my health journey will always be in my heart. I am not the same person that I was before I got sick, and I would like to think that my health journey has made me a better person. I'm so thankful that I started this blog as it has given me the final stage of the grieving process: acceptance.
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| After August 2014 |
"I have fought the good fight; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith." -2nd Timothy 4:7
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| Before August 2010 |
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