Final Post: Acceptance

Epilogue

I officially "called it" on Labor Day of 2013. I had a lot of manage, but the key was that I could manage all the medicines and diets. I no longer struggled daily with that horrid gastritis pain. Once I felt 100% better, my last year of high school began to fly by. The math class at the community college presented its challenges, but it was a great way to prepare me for college academics. In October of 2013, my mom and I were the (very proud!) co-coordinators of Making Tracks for Celiacs: Des Moines--the first ever celiac disease awareness walk in Des Moines. After months of planning, the walk was a huge success! My mom and I were interviewed in the Des Moines Register and KCCI Channel 8 broadcast live from the walk and interviewed me. Over $4,000 was raised and 150 people participated. It was a dream come true! The year of 2013 ended and 2014 began. This was going to be a big year for me: I would graduate high school and go to college. I was very thankful when I finished high school for several reasons. First, I made it a whole year of high school without something medically bad happening.
 Freshman year: mono, c.diff, and celiac disease.
 Sophomore year: surgery, Iowa City, hospitalized, IBS, and gastroparesis
Junior year: gastritis
Understandably, I was quite intimidated by what could possibly happen during my senior year! Thankfully, nothing happened. I was proud of myself for finishing high school on time and with good grades.

Where Am I Now?

These days, I am feeling great! I will occasionally have a day where I do everything I'm supposed to, but I just don't feel good. That comes with having four chronic digestive disorders. However, I would say that I feel well 95% of the time! My diet is still restricted but much less than what it used to be. I currently avoid gluten, dairy, meat, bananas, coconut, tomatoes, and onions. As for medicines, I still take amitriptyline and prescription prevacid. I have completely weaned myself off of cholestryamine because it was making my stomach hurt after I took it. Not living with all the nasty side effects has greatly improved my quality of life! I also take a vitamin, probiotic, Miralax, and peppermint oil capsules.
 I can run anywhere between three to four miles three times a week, and I still enjoy it just as much as I did when I started. To date, I have participated in seven 5k races.
 This summer, I am working (still at the daycare!) and running a lot. I recently returned from a trip to Texas to visit my cousin and her incredible family. My cousin has her own health issues and has been a constant source of friendship at support! I will turn 19 next Sunday, and shortly after that I will embark on my latest adventure: college. I will be attending Iowa State University for dietetics. I plan on becoming a pediatric clinical dietitian after I graduate. Just the thought of having the opportunity to help kids who are sick and in hospitals fills me with joy. Going to college is a big step for me, and I would be lying if I said that I wasn't nervous. In addition to managing everything that is college, I will be bringing along my restricted diet, medicines, and health problems. I believe that God will give me the strength to manage all of this, just like He has given me strength to manage chronic illness at a young age.

Final Glances

Before I publish this last post, there are a few more things I want to say. My health journey was unexpected, chronic, complicated, and rough. At the same time, there are so many blessings that have come from it.
My faith: this is something that has definitely increased since I got sick. I have a small notebook filled with encouraging verses from the Bible that I read every day when I was sick. It was amazing to experience the amount of peace and comfort I got from these verses. Multiple times one of these verses would "randomly" pop into my head in a time that I needed to hear something encouraging, comforting, or reassuring. I have now personally seen how God works "all things for the good of those who love Him" and that He does have a plan for us. God has placed incredible people in my life, and it's amazing to think about how His plan has played out through all sorts of people. All of the blessings/lessons I've learned listed below would never have occurred if I hadn't gotten sick. Yes, living with all that I have and experiencing everything that I've been through was not pleasant. Do I wish it would have never happened? No. If I could go back in time and magically prevent all of this from happening, I wouldn't! As I mentioned above, I want to be a dietitian. I would never in a million years have decided on that career choice if I hadn't been sick enough to require a dietitian's help. I would have probably ended up as a speech language pathologist or a personal trainer, but I am SO excited for my future as a dietitian! I love how I can finally see a little bit of God's great plan for me.
My family: I have formed very close relationships with my family, especially my mom and grandparents, during my health journey. My mom was (and still is) my constant source of support. If I don't feel good or something isn't going right, she is the first person I turn to. She can always cheer
me up and make me feel better. I'm so thankful for the memories, both good and bad, that we've gone made and the experiences that we've gone through together. I know that I wouldn't have made it out of my health crisis without her! My grandparents have also been so supportive. It started with them baking me gluten-free treats and making family gatherings "Sarah Safe". Since then, my grandpa and I text each other every night and we all enjoy being together. Both of my grandparents are inspirations to me; they've been through so much but yet they are the kindest people I know. I've also deeply bonded with my precious cat, Oliver. He's always been my baby, but when I got sick he became even closer to me. He always comforted me when I was upset by purring, rubbing his face against my hand, and rolling around on the floor to make me laugh. He even kneads his paws on my stomach when I don't feel good! I have also developed close relationships with two of my cousins, Lisa and Leda. We don't live close, but we are certainly close at heart! All three of my dad's siblings have also showed so much care and concern through my health journey. I never felt like I was going through this alone; I could always feel the support and prayers that were coming from my spread-across-the-country family!

My friends: When my health reached the point where I was always canceling plans with friends because I didn't feel good, only two of my friends stuck by my side. Elizabeth and T. Both of them always asked how I was feeling and were very sensitive to my health. They didn't seem to mind if I canceled existing plans because a doctor appointment or test came up. I've been friends with Elizabeth since I was in kindergarten, and T. and I have been friends since first or second grade. Both of them have secured a place in my wedding :P The family that I babysat for have also proved to me huge blessings. Those kiddos were the perfect distraction for me when I needed one. Erika, their amazing mother, always filled me with hope and encouragement when I was sick.
My doctors and medical team: I talk a lot in my blog about my doctors, nurses, and other medical professionals I've interacted with. I think if I would have been younger or older, the medical staff I had wouldn't have mattered as much. However, I was at such a vulnerable age: 15-18 years old. I spent more time in waiting rooms and with the doctor than I did at friends' houses. Therefore, my nurses and doctors became my friends. I now consider them family. Each doctor has made a difference in my life and for that I will be forever thankful. Of course, there's always that doctor. Even though Dr. Satan did absolutely nothing to improve my quality of life, he did teach me things. He taught me to appreciate the good doctors. He taught me to advocate for myself, even if the "doctor" didn't believe a word I said. He taught me how to stand tall and strong in the midst of a raging storm. This doesn't mean that I speak well of him because I had to learn all of these things thanks to him. When I look back at my time with him, it doesn't go well for me. I know he has affected other patients in a similar way. There are days when I want to report him to the Iowa Board of Medicine or blackmail him, but then I remind myself of two things my mom told me: "God will take care of people like him" and "The best revenge is you feeling better because of doctors in Des Moines."
 My mom and I regularly get together with Nurse T. for lunch or walks. She is such a good friend and an inspiration. My friendship with Nurse T. is the perfect example of one of the greatest blessings that has come from my health journey.

Facts and Figures:  My mom finds these figured depressing, but I find them interesting and somewhat amusing. From 2010-2013, I visited the hospital 105 times. I had five ultrasounds, seven x-rays, three endoscopies, two colonoscopies, one surgery, and nine nuclear medicine tests. I saw 15 doctors from 11 different specialties.
Thank YOU: When I started this blog, I didn't know if it would be successful. I figured the only people who would read it would be my family and friends. As of today, however, over 3,800 people in 12 different countries have read this blog! Thank you for showing interest in my blog. As I'm about to mention, writing this blog has been crucial for me to move forward from my health journey.
Things I've Learned: I have learned that nothing tastes as good as feeling good, sometimes all you need to do is read a Harry Potter book, it's okay to cry, peppermint does wonders on a troubled tummy, never tell a sick person how terrible they look, understanding the family tree of the British Monarchy is a great distraction, cats provide great comfort, some GI doctors look up so many buttholes that they become one, not every doctor will be as great as mine so I thank God for my doctors, coffee is a laxative, gluten can be hidden in anything and everything, people will say stupid stuff because they are ignorant, a walk around the lake can mentally transform a person, and everyone has a story, baggage, and pains that they will always carry with them.

When a traumatic event happens, there are five stages of mourning: shock, denial, anger, depression, and acceptance. As I look back on my health journey, I can clearly see the times when I went through these stages. I can also see when I went through these stages after I felt better. The psychological recovery after the physical recovery of chronic illness is just as important. It took me a while to learn how to function without feeling sick. After I discovered this, I had a hard time accepting and moving on from my recently won battle. When I started this blog, I just wanted to share my story and maybe help some people. I had no idea that writing my health story would be such a cleansing process. I had to dig down deep and re-live the past few years. This was not easy to do, but after I published each post, I had this wonderful feeling of peace. Yes, bad things have happened to me but it's okay. I survived, I am alive, and I am thriving. I am living the life that I dreamed about when I was sick; I can run, work, and do what I want to do. I'm even going to college soon! I will never be able to forget everything that has happened to me, but I've come to the point where I don't dwell on what has happened. I'm a total sentimentalist so my health journey will always be in my heart. I am not the same person that I was before I got sick, and I would like to think that my health journey has made me a better person. I'm so thankful that I started this blog as it has given me the final stage of the grieving process: acceptance.

After
August 2014

"I have fought the good fight; I have finished the race; I have kept the faith." -2nd Timothy 4:7



Before
August 2010



 

 

 

THE END!!!!!!!!!

 

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The "Something Else"

June 2013

Clean out day :(

I hoped and prayed that something, anything, would change or improve so I wouldn't have to have my third endoscopy and second colonoscopy on June 6. My stomach refused to comply with this idea. There were events to keep my mind busy however. My mom and I made mints and table favors with my future sister-in-law for their upcoming wedding, and we also hosted and attended bridal showers. June 4 was my last day of freedom before the following clean out and scope. I met up with a friend of mine who was moving to California at Starbucks. I ordered a Grande Frappuccino as a treat for myself since I knew what to expect for the next two days. I wasn't able to eat any solids on June 5 so I started the day with a popsicle. The "dirty", as Dr. Di put it, clean out started at noon with a magnesium citrate. I downed it in my usual time of 30 minutes while watching a show on PBS about England. I switched back and forth from jello to popsicles for the rest of the day, and I drank the second magnesium citrate at 4:00. The second bottle was much harder to get down than the first and took me a long time. I felt so nauseous and exhausted. I camped out on the couch with my cat and the TV remote for the entire day. A surprise came from my grandparents in the afternoon: a bouquet of flowers and an adorable stuffed lion. My grandparents stayed completely up to date with my medical problems, and my mom talked to my grandpa every day to update him about me. I went to bed early that night, mainly because I had to get up early the next day, but also because the clean out had completely exhausted me. I was so down in the dumps. How did I make it back to this? My last scope was in August of 2011; almost two years ago. What could possibly be wrong?
 I had to be at the hospital at 7am on the day of the scope, June 6. There was some extreme deja vu going on as my mom and I walked into the hospital and to the endoscopy floor. Last time, I was so dehydrated that I could barely move, but I didn't feel that way this time. A big male nurse called me from the waiting room and took me back to the prep area. Since I was so out-of-it last time, it was a like a whole new world! I changed into the very flattering hospital gown and socks before the nurse came in. She had the sweetest voice I've ever heard! She was very quite and mild with a soft and squeaky voice to match. She almost made the experience pleasant! After she left, I read my current British book until Dr. Di came in. My parents signed consent forms, we went over the procedure, and Dr. Di said that if the scope came back normal he would try to get me in to see an adult GI even though my 18th birthday was over two months away. The thought of that made me pray even harder that there would be something visibly wrong. That's such an odd thing to pray for, but when you are in a situation like mine, you find yourself praying for a problem that can be resolved. After Dr. Di left, Nurse T. surprised me with a visit! It was so great to see her; she completely put me at ease. Soon it was time to start the IV so I could be taken back to the procedure room. I kept myself from rolling my eyes when the child life specialist came in and talked to me like I was 10. I knew the IV would be hard to get in because I was dehydrated, and I was right. After two nurses and three tries, an IV was finally started. While the nurses were trying, the anesthesiologist came in to go over the basics of being put under. I hugged my mom goodbye before walking with a nurse down the hallway and around a corner. I saw a huge white board (just like on Grey's Anatomy) stating which doctor was in which room. This procedure room was different from the room I was in last time. It was small, dark, and very crowded. Nurse J., Dr. Di's male nurse, was drinking coffee and greeted me with a friendly hello and asked how I was.
"Well....I'm here."
Nurse J. apologized for drinking coffee since it was "unprofessional". I told him that it smelled so good and I was thirsty. I laid down on the table while the nurses put heart monitor stickers on me. I heard the anesthesiologist (who was behind my head) ask Dr. Di how he wants his teens during scopes. Dr. Di replied that I should be kept still and calm.
"And asleep." I added, which drew laughs from everybody.
"Good for you; voicing your own opinion!" The nurse who was standing next to me said. "You look familiar. Have we scoped you before?"
I was impressed that she was able to recognize me after almost two years. She had me breathe in oxygen before the "magic medicine" was going to be put in through the IV. It might sting and I would probably feel "floaty". Shortly after she said that, my fingers started to tingle and my cheeks stung and itched. I briefly felt nervous, but I reminded myself that as soon as I fell asleep I would wake up again. That's one of the blessings from being put under so many times: I knew what to expect. My face felt hot and then the floaty feeling came.

About 45 minutes later, Dr. Di met my parents in the waiting room while I was taken to recovery. I faintly remember asking the nurse where my mom was before falling back asleep. I remember opening my eyes and seeing my mom. I was very teary and confused. Ultimately, I was dying to know what, if anything, was wrong, but I couldn't think straight enough to come up with the words to ask. I got very upset about the automatic blood pressure cuff that was squeezing my arm and the oxygen clip on my finger.
"It's bugging me." I said as I took the clip off my finger. The nurse gently moved it to a different finger which satisfied me. When I was more awake, I asked my mom what they found. I still clearly remember my mom saying: "your stomach is inflamed and there is bile in your stomach." I was so relieved that I fell back asleep. The next time I woke up, I asked for something to drink. The nurse brought me a juice box. Even though I still had a decent amount of anesthesia in my body, I still searched the juice box for a label to read.
"Sarah....it's gluten-free." My mom told me.
I slept on and off for about a hour before the nurse wanted me to start sitting up. I was curious to see the pictures of my inflamed stomach, and I was taken back at how red and inflamed the inside of my stomach looked. It was also weird to see green liquid (bile) in my stomach as well..  I added a fourth digestive disorder to my list: gastritis

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Gastritis: Gastritis occurs when the lining of the stomach becomes inflamed or swollen.
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 I didn't feel completely awake, but I was cleared to go home anyways. My mom left to get the car while I was wheeled outside. I slept the whole way home, and when I got home I went up to my bedroom where my cat was more than willing to comfort me by purring and sleeping as close to me as possible. I rested for most of the day, but I was so touched when flowers came from my brother and future sister-in-law.

Beautiful flowers from
my brother and his fiancée

  My mom informed me that Dr. Di prescribed Nexium, the purple pill, for the inflammation in my stomach. The bile had leaked into my stomach because I don't have a gall bladder. Dr. Di wanted to give the Nexium a chance to work before starting anything for the bile.
At the end of the day, I was exhausted but thankful. There was a problem that could be fixed. If you remember from the previous post, both Dr. El and Dr. Di had guessed that I had gastritis. An inflamed stomach completely explained the early feelings of being full and the stomach pain that was so bad I could hardly stand up straight.

I had been on Nexium for a few days when I started to see it actually working. I only noticed a very small difference in how I felt, but it was better than nothing. In the meantime, I continued to work, run, and prepare for my role as a bridesmaid in my brother's upcoming wedding. This brings me to some much needed comic relief: I had been using a daily tanning lotion so I wouldn't look like a vampire in my bridesmaid dress. I was getting dressed one day when I noticed something strange. There were three round circle shapes on my chest that weren't tan. I couldn't figure out what it was but it finally hit me: the heart monitors that were stuck to my chest during the scope had taken off my tanning lotion! I started applying extra lotion to those areas so it wouldn't be visibly noticeable that I had been put under about a month before the wedding!
 As time moved on, I still didn't feel consistently well. My mom called Nurse J., who gave a full report to Dr. Di. A medicine was prescribed, and this medicine was called cholestryamine:
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Cholestryamine: an oral drug used for many reasons, one of which is to bind up any excess bile in the stomach.
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In addition to having nasty sounding side effects (constipation and abdominal distension anyone?), this medicine was what I would call high maintenance. It had to be taken three hours before any other medicine and no more than one hour after other medicine. This wouldn't be such a problem if I wasn't on so many medicines! I was still taking amitriptyline and Nexium in addition to a vitamin, probiotic, Miralax, occasional Tylenol, and peppermint oil capsules. All of those counted as medicines. My mom came up with a medicine schedule that we sat down and planned every single day. That isn't the end of this high maintenance medicine though. It was a powder that I mixed with three ounces of water twice a day. The powder was bright orange and smelled like orange juice. It kind of tasted like Sunny D, only not as good. I also had to brush my teeth really well after I drank it because it would coat my teeth and could cause potential tooth decay. Sounds great right?! With all the effort and planning this medicine took, it had better work.
 I actually did feel better within a few days! I could never feel well consistently though. I was, however, very proud of myself for graduating from the Couch 2 5k running program! By the end of June, I could run three miles. I was so thankful that this latest round of bad health didn't prevent me from running. I felt like I was fighting my stomach back whenever I ran!

July 2013

On July 1 I had a follow up appointment with Dr. Di. I still wasn't consistently feeling better. My mom looked back through my medical history file on our computer and noticed that at the end of last summer (when I felt 100% better), I had just gotten off prescription prevacid (aka lansoprazole). Lansoprazole is in the same family as other medicines that shut off pumps in the stomach that produce acid. If it worked last year, why wouldn't it work again? Dr. Di agreed to try the prevacid, along with increasing the cholestryamine to three times a day. While doing his usual physical exam, Dr. Di felt something different in my stomach. He thought it was probably a muscle (abs of steel!!) or maybe my spine, but he wanted me to have an ultrasound just in case. It was almost sad how routine and normal the ultrasound was. Of course, it came back normal.
 As my brother's wedding drew closer, I started to get nervous. I desperately wanted to feel better for the wedding. I wanted to look like a healthy bridesmaid, dance the night away at the reception, and have a great report for all the out-of-state relatives who would be there and undoubtedly ask how I was feeling. Thankfully, as the week of the wedding came around, I did start to feel a little bit better. I noticed that my stomach would really start to hurt, that gastritis pain, about 30 minutes before the next dose of cholestryamine was due. After I drank my medicine, my stomach would feel better. I began to look at cholestryamine as a friend, not a terrible side effect causing medicine that tasted gross.

Wedding time!

The weekend of my brother's wedding came quickly. It was so great to see my dad's siblings and cousins again AND to tell them that I was feeling better. I was able to dance with everybody else for the entire reception, something that I love to do at weddings! My stomach felt great, but that was probably due to the fact that I hadn't had much to eat that day. The day after the wedding, when I actually had time to eat, my stomach returned to its usual fullness and pain mode.
 The rest of July was filled with working, running, and enjoying what was left of summer. I registered to take a math class at our community college, as prep for college, during my senior year of high school, and I wondered if I would still not feel well when it started.

August 2013

At the beginning of August, I noticed an interesting trend. On days when I worked a morning shift at the daycare, I got up at 6:00 in the morning. I had to take my cholestryamine after I woke up and one hour after taking my other medicines. I set my alarm to take my prevacid, probiotic, and peppermint oil capsule at 5:20 a.m. so I could take the cholestryamine at 6:20 before I left for work. On days when I didn't have to work the morning shift, I didn't set an alarm to take my medicine at 5:20. On days when I didn't do this, I didn't feel well. On days when I took my pills at 5:20, I felt pretty good. I like to think that God caused me to realize this because I had a dream where I took my pills at 5:20 when in reality I didn't. Maybe my body was so used to receiving the pills at 5:20 that I dreamt about it. With this being said, I will remind you what prevacid does: prevacid shuts off the pumps in the stomach that produce acid. When I took prevacid at 5:20, those pumps were shut off and stomach acid wasn't irritating the gastritis. However, when I didn't take prevacid at 5:20, the pumps were shut off at whatever time I took it. I decided to always set my alarm for 5:20, regardless of what time I actually had to get up, to see if that helped. It did! Still to this day, I take my prevacid at 5:20 in the morning. After realizing that prevacid had to be taken at the same time every day, it made me wonder if taking the cholestryamine at the same time would have the same effect. I created a schedule and strictly followed it. It worked wonders!


The master schedule

 I had read something on Pinterest about chamomile tea being good for healing inflammation. I started drinking a cup of chamomile tea (with some milk because chamomile tea by itself tastes like straw!) every morning. It helped my stomach get started off on a good note, and it tasted great! August 10 brought my 18th birthday! I celebrated by having a picnic and boat ride at the lake with all of my family before going to the Iowa State Fair. I felt great on my birthday! I didn't feel like I had "turned the corner" but I knew I was close.
 Now that I was 18, I could finally get my ears pierced. My mom's rule was that my sister and I had to wait until we were 18 to get our ears pierced. My friend, Elizabeth, and I had made plans to go to Claire's together and get my ears pierced ever since we were little. Elizabeth has had her ears pierced three times so she was full of advice and tips. My mom, Elizabeth, and I made a day out of this big event by going out for lunch before the piercing and shopping afterwards. My mom couldn't watch me get my ears pierced because she thought she would throw up so she waited outside. Having my ears pierced was just like having blood drawn or an IV started. I had no problems with the piercing, and I fell in love with my new look!

No big deal! :P

 My senior year of high school started a few days after I got my ears pierced. I had some stress and anxiety about starting the math class at the community college and that resulted in me not feeling well. I still struggled on and off with the gastritis pain even when I had taken my pills at the right time so I knew I wasn't 100% yet, but I was so close!
 I accomplished a great feat on August 25: I ran my first 5k race at the church that I work at! I finished in just a little over 30 minutes, and I was in the top ten finishers. My health might not be perfect, but I was in awe of the progress I had made. Two years ago in August 2011, I was dangerously sick and waiting for an answer. I was healthy in August 2012, but I was in no position to run 3.2 miles. Had I turned the corner? I think so.....

TO BE CONTINUED.....

Finishing my first 5k!!

April & May 2013: Winter Has Come Back Again

April 2013:

We left off with me having stomach pain and extreme fullness just a few bites in to breakfast on April 12, 2013. This continued for the rest of the day. Thankfully, I was able to escape the pain while having a fun time with my friend Elizabeth. The pain was back the next day and stayed for the rest of the weekend. I had increased my Miralax, in case I was constipated, but that didn't seem to be the problem. I was starting to get worried. My biggest fear was that the gastroparesis was getting worse; what if I ended up having to have feeding tubes like Beth? My mom called Nurse T. to get her opinion. We had stopped the weekly weight checks at the end of 2012, and while it was great to not go to the hospital every week, I did miss talking with Nurse T. Nurse T. suggested that we come in to see Dr. S., my pediatrician, so we made an appointment for the following Tuesday. At that appointment, Dr. S. said, "I see people all the time who have stomach aches, but I always flinch more when it's you." Dr. S. said that it could be a virus, but he seemed just as worried as we were. Dr. S. decided to order an abdominal x-ray because of my history with stomach/bowel problems. Besides, the pain and fullness, I felt fine. I didn't feel lethargic or achy. After waiting for what seemed like an eternity, the x-ray results came back. I had, once again, colonic constipation. I just about cried. I did not want to go through another clean out process again, but it was the only option. In addition to this, I was also very close to finishing my junior year of high school. That means I was preparing to take the ACT test in a few weeks, and I was very nervous. I didn't have time to get cleaned out! I was somewhat relieved that it was "just" colonic constipation, and not worsening of my gastroparesis or the dreaded "something else". I started the all too familiar clean out process by drinking another magnesium citrate. I did have improvement after the clean out, but the fullness returned a few days later. As my luck would have it, Dr. S. was on vacation so Nurse T. suggested that I see a different doctor within their practice, Dr. El. If you remember from "The Devil Wears a Lab Coat", I saw Dr. El. briefly when the medicine Dr. Satan put me on caused my chest to feel tight. Dr. El. is a very sweet doctor who calls his patients "sweetheart", "beautiful", and "princess". I was a little nervous to see a new doctor, since Dr. S. knows me and my history so well, but a few minutes with Dr. El. assured me that I had nothing to be nervous about. Dr. El. wasn't so sure that I was completely cleaned out, even with the magnesium citrate. He wanted me to do an enema one a day for three days and drink mineral oil three times a day for 3-5 days. I think we're all familiar with enemas so I won't disgust you by providing details about that. Mineral oil, however, is something not everybody is familiar with:
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Mineral Oil:  a distillation product of petroleum, especially one used as a lubricant, moisturizer, or laxative.
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Drinking mineral oil is like drinking Elmer's glue, the runny type. It's slimy and covers your entire mouth in this slime. It was absolutely disgusting! I was spending a lot of time in the bathroom, but still not feeling like my normal self. I was still full early into meals, and my stomach felt like it had been beaten with a baseball bat after I ate. I was starting to doubt that this was just constipation.

May 2013

With school and the ACT test behind me, I tried to start enjoying my summer. I was working more hours at the daycare and coming up on my one year anniversary there. Wedding plans were also picking up speed as we approached the July date of my brother's wedding. Showers, dress shopping, craft days, and mint making days took up most weekends. I still continued to run and make great progress on the Couch 2 5k plan. I also still battling these mysterious new stomach issues. I felt so full that eating was once again very difficult. I had stopped eating all bread products because they felt too heavy in my stomach. Nothing seemed to help my stomach; I tried Altoids and peppermint tea but that didn't help. The only thing that made a tiny difference was sucking on peppermint hard candies; I usually averaged about five a day. I saw Dr. El. again on May 1 since I had absolutely no improvements. Dr. El. wanted me to have another x-ray of my abdomen, but his in office x-ray tech wasn't there that day. I made the familiar walk over the hospital and into outpatient admitting. I usually have great experiences with x-ray techs, but this time wasn't so great. I had two women, one of which was a student, who argued the entire time. They disagreed on where the top of my leg was, where to put the x-ray, and how many pictures to take. I was relieved to finally get away from them. Dr. El. told us that once the results were back, he was going to ask both Dr. S. and Dr. Di (my pediatric GI) to look at the results with him. Dr. El. was also starting to wonder if constipation wasn't the problem, and he thought it was time to bring Dr. Di in. Although I would rather not be in this situation, I was comforted by the fact that all my doctors would be working together for me.
 The next day, I was finishing taking a shower when I heard my mom run down the stairs and knock repeatedly on the bathroom door. Something was wrong. I could hear panic in my mom's voice as she said, "Sarah....the receptionist from Dr. Di's office called, and he wants to see you tomorrow morning." We hadn't heard anything from anybody about the x-ray results. Was it so bad that my GI doctor wanted to see me? It's difficult to get an immediate appointment with Dr. Di so why would they need to squeeze me in as soon as possible? My mom called Nurse T. to get her opinion. Nurse T. said that the x-ray showed that my colon looked much better, but she thought we should take the appointment. I was scheduled to work a full day at the daycare, but my boss said I could leave for the appointment and then come back. I was so nervous; I had no idea what to expect.
 The unexpected appointment fell on my second anniversary of being gluten-free. I tried to not think about how depressing it was that I was still having stomach issues even after two years of being on the gluten-free diet. My mom picked me up from work and we drove though a snowstorm (yes, a snowstorm in May) to Dr. Di's office. When he asked me what was going on, I did my best to make it clear that I felt full but not a constipation-like full. Dr. Di said that he wasn't 100% sure that constipation was the problem, but he wanted me to do one more clean out just in case. When Dr. Di asked if I was able to get a magnesium citrate down, my mom informed him that I had drank five bottles of magnesium citrate since this problem started less than a month ago.
"You drank five bottles of magnesium citrate?!?!" He exclaimed.

Surprise from my mom!

My mom further revealed that I did three enemas (to which Dr. Di rolled his eyes and stuck out his tongue) and 15 ounces of mineral oil for five days ("oh ew...I don't even know why they use mineral oil anymore!"). Thankfully, Dr. Di had a much less aggressive clean out plan: a mega dose of Miralax twice a day for five days. If I still didn't have any improvement, I would swallow radioactive pills and have x-rays taken to see where the pills were and if there was a slow down anywhere. Dr. Di had been in communication (by texting!) with Dr. El., and they both thought that I could have gastritis--inflammation of the stomach. After confirming the plan, Dr. Di left with his usual, "hang in there", and my mom drove me back to work. I went into the appointment feeling very nervous, but I felt confident about the next plan. All I need is a plan.
 Since it was my second anniversary of being gluten-free, my mom surprised me at work with green (the celiac disease awareness color) flowers and balloons!

I was going to the bathroom more, but I still felt the same. I finally knew that constipation was not the problem. Dr. Di prescribed omeprazole to treat possible gastritis. When I picked up the medicine at the pharmacy, I asked the pharmacist how long it would take to kick in.
"It depends." The pharmacist said. "What do they think is wrong with you this time?"
That is a sign that you have been too sick for too long!
 On Friday, May 10, I started the Sitz marker test:
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Sitz marker test: Radioactive pills are swallowed and two x-rays are taken three days apart. The x-rays show how the rate that the pills are moving and checks for obstructions.
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Call me a nerd, but I think this is incredibly cool! Nurse J. in Dr. Di's office gave me the pills to swallow, and my mom and I went over to the hospital for yet another x-ray. We would come back for the next x-ray on Monday.
 Meanwhile, I completed a big accomplishment: I ran all the way around the 2.2 mile lake! I was so proud of myself and the progress I had made. Although my stomach was fighting me again, I fought back by doing what I wanted to do. The Sitz marker test results came back on May 14, showing that I had slow transit constipation on the right side of my colon where the small intestine hooks on to the large intestine..

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Slow transit constipation (STC): This syndrome is attributed to disordered colonic motor function.
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This sounds like another scary diagnosis to add to my list (and maybe for some people it is), but it really isn't. Dr. Di wanted me to take two senna (a laxative) tablets for two weeks. My mom asked when the omeprazole would start working, and Nurse J. said to give it two weeks. Meanwhile, I continued working and running while fighting the stomach pain and fullness. Towards the end of May, my symptoms began to get worse. My stomach started to hurt constantly, not just after eating. I kept track, and I felt full three bites into a meal. I was already eating half size portions because of my gastroparesis, but now I could only manage 1/4 of a meal. I jokingly said that it was time to take another beating whenever it was time to eat, but that's truly how my stomach felt after I ate. I was also tired and usually took a nap in the afternoon.

A climbing wall champ

 I tried to enjoy myself at our annual Memorial Day camping trip. I climbed to the top of the climbing tower though! The weather was nasty and prevented us from being outside as much as we usually were. Plus, I was so uncomfortable. Now I woke up feeling full and in pain...before I even ate anything! My mom was going to call Nurse J. as soon as the long weekend was over. Something was definitely very wrong. I tried to not get down in the dumps about how I was feeling. I was still shocked that all this had happened again. How did I go from delivery cookies because I felt so great to x-rays and numerous doctor appointments?
 My mom called Nurse J. after Memorial Day and told him about my symptoms. The omeprazole didn't help and taking the senna tablet didn't help. What else could we try? I probably should have seen what happened next coming, but it still took me by surprise. I was outside walking my cat (yes, I put a leash and collar on my cat and walk him around the backyard) when my mom came outside and over to where Oliver and I were. I could tell by the look on her face that she wasn't happy.
"Dr. Di wants to do another endoscopy and colonoscopy on June 6."

TO BE CONTINUED.......

Eight Months Later

September 2012: Moving On

Celiac disease awareness walk

Autumn had officially arrived in Iowa. The leaves were changing colors and all things pumpkin and apple scented were hot buys. I was still feeling great! I had stopped the visceral massage therapy due to the therapist telling me that my bowel troubles were because of "thoughts that I needed to let go of". Needless to say, I never saw her again. Exciting events were happening in my family: my brother proposed to his longtime girlfriend! We were all thrilled to have a new member of the family.
 The one year anniversary of my gall bladder surgery passed on September 23. It was funny to think of living 365 days without one of my organs, but I was very thankful about that! Another sign that I was healthy was walking in a 5k! I discovered a celiac disease awareness walk in Kansas City, and my family and I went. It was so much fun! I dreamed of Des Moines having a celiac walk after I was diagnosed, but it took so much effort to plan! *side note: my mom and I co-coordinated a very successful celiac disease awareness walk in October of 2013 in Des Moines!* I was proud of myself for being able to walk 3.2 miles. Maybe I was in better shape than I thought!

October 2012: Stronger

Race for the Cure

October brought my future sister-in-law asking me to be a bridesmaid in their wedding! I had never been in a wedding before so I was very excited. I also had a small experiment going on with my diet. I noticed that my stomach was upset whenever I ate any type of sweet--cookies, cupcakes, cake, pie, etc.--so I cut out most sweets and felt tremendously better.
 After two years of sitting out, I was finally able to participate in Race for the Cure! I decked out in all pink and walked the 3.2 mile course with my mom and sister. It was cold, but we had fun anyways. That night was Reggie's Sleepout, a night where people slept in tents in a football stadium to benefit homeless people. It was like 26 degrees or something horrid like that, so I bundled up in multiple layers. I wouldn't say that I enjoyed the event, but I'm glad I was able to do it once in my life.

November 2012: A Very Thankful Thanksgiving

Thanksgiving

I don't think I had ever been as thankful as I was this year. I was making enormous strides with my health. I started a very simple workout routine consisting of floor strengthening exercises, and I could tell that I was making great progress. I always enjoyed fitness before I got sick and it was a goal of mine to eventually start running, but I had to reach my goal weight first. Even though I was feeling healthy, I wasn't at a healthy weight. Anyways, I was able to do everything that I wanted to do when I was sick. I was working and babysitting, driving everywhere, hanging out with friends, exercising, and actually having a life. At Thanksgiving, I was so thankful for my family, friends, doctors, nurses, medicines, and everything else that got me to this point.

December 2012: Where My Demons Hide

Brother Bear's graduation

I am a Christmas fanatic so I usually enjoy the month of December. Even though I was looking forward to Christmas, there were two big obstacles in this month. The first of which was my brother's college graduation. Of course, I was very proud of my brother for earning his degree but unfortunately, his graduation took place in Iowa City. I had struggled with flashbacks and bad memories about going to Dr. Satan in Iowa City and everything that happened after for almost an entire year. How was I supposed to go back?! I knew that I wasn't going to the hospital; I was going to celebrate my brother graduation. I also knew that being back in that city would wreck havoc inside me. Leading up to graduation weekend, I was felt sick with anxiety. I had been around Iowa City numerous times when my brother was a student at the university so I knew how the city was set up. I listened to the song "Titanium" while driving through the city to help calm my nerves. I was very tense and alert for the whole weekend. I constantly looked over my shoulder and around me. My heart skipped a beat every time I saw an older man. The scariest moment of all came when we were leaving the graduation ceremony. I immediately recognized the hospital parking ramp and the entrance that I used when I went there. It didn't take long before I started shaking, my heart raced rapidly, and I broke out in a cold sweat. I tried to console myself by looking through pictures on my iPod of Cookie Delivery Day and of my doctors and heroes, but it didn't stop the traumatic feelings and emotions from playing through my head. As much as I love spending time with my brother, I couldn't wait to be back in Des Moines.
 The next obstacle hit right after Christmas. I had recently befriended the daughter of a church member. Beth was her name, and she had severe gastroparesis; her stomach literally did not move. She "ate" by feeding tubes and threw up whenever she ate anything. My gastroparesis is not as severe as Beth's, but we were able to bond through our common struggles. Beth was a 24 year old fighter. She was feisty, spoke everything that was on her mind, and didn't care who heard it. Her doctors in Des Moines had given up, but I knew that her attitude would pull her through. She was scheduled to have a gastric pacemaker placed in February. On Christmas Eve, we exchanged gifts and made plans to go out for lunch sometime. On December 27, Beth text me saying that she was in the ER due to dehydration and pain on the left side of her body. She wanted me to come and visit her the next day. The texts that I received from Beth didn't make much sense, but I figured that she was just distracted. I text her in the afternoon on December 28, and I thought it was strange that she didn't instantly reply like she always did. I was at the movie theater, seeing The Hobbit with my mom and sister. When we left the theater, there was a text on my mom's phone from my dad, telling her to call him. My sister and I were talking about the movie when my mom suddenly burst out, "WHAT?!" while talking to my dad. She broke into tears, which she rarely does, so I knew something was very wrong. My first thought was that something had happened to my grandparents. My mom got off the phone with my dad and said, "Oh Sarah, I'm so sorry." My instinct told me that my beloved cat, Oliver, had escaped or died.

The bracelet Beth gave me
and a gastroparesis
awareness bracelet

"Beth died." When my mom first told me this, I was in complete doubt. No, that's not possible. I'm going to text her and ask if she died. Of course, that would make no sense but it shows how doubtful I was. As my mom passed on the minor details from my dad, I felt like a heavy weight was slowly pressing down on me. I would never get a "hey hunny! how you feeling?" text from her. We would never have lunch together. I would never go over to her house and play with her adorable daughters. I would never be able to show her the manicure that I got with her gift certificate she gave me for Christmas. I was unable to move for the rest of the car ride. At home, I stood in the snowy driveway until my mom had to move me inside. I finally broke down sobbing. How did the girl I gave a present to on Christmas Eve be dead four days later? Somehow my brother had found out the news and called me right away. Moving on from this obstacle was very difficult and writing about it has been just as hard as writing about what happened in Iowa City. The year had came in like a lion and seemed to be leaving just as bad. Beth's funeral gave me comfort; our pastor talked about how Beth won the battle. She was no longer suffering every single day like she was on earth. It made me smile to think of Beth marching around Heaven telling everybody what was on her mind. I got the manicure she gave me for Christmas the day before her funeral, and I chose purple nail polish in honor of Beth's favorite color. I still wear the beautiful friendship bracelet she gave me about a month before she died, and I see her mother and daughter regularly at church. Beth's daughter is a spitting image of herself, both in looks and attitude! I always smile when I see her daughter march up the aisle to the front of the church for the kids' sermon, and I know Beth is doing the same thing in Heaven.

January 2013: A New Beginning

New Year's Day is always a day to wipe away the bad from the last year and welcome new thoughts of a great new year. 2012 definitely had its bad and good moments. It was hard to move on from Beth's death, but I found myself feeling physically sick whenever I thought of her and the things we never accomplished. I knew that Beth would not want me to not feel well because of thoughts about her, but I was down in the dumps for a while. A follow up with my pediatric GI doctor, Dr. Di, helped cheer me up. The receptionist greeted me with a cheerful smile, and Nurse J. was happy to see him. He had just returned from a vacation in South America and picked up a pin from Lima, Peru for me! Both Nurse J. and Dr. Di were glad to see that I was still feeling great AND that I had brought homemade candy for them. I was still walking on my NordicTrack after eating, and it was getting really old. I discovered that if I didn't eat meat, I didn't have to NordicTrack. I experimented for a few days and confirmed my hypothesis. I officially went vegetarian! I had always been interested in a vegetarian lifestyle, mainly because I love animals so much, and now I was able to try it. I found that I didn't miss meat at all!
 The first anniversary of my appointment with Dr. Satan came on January 23. I surprised my mom with flowers and drinks from Caribou Coffee as a way to make nice memories on what will forever be a very bad day.

February 2013: Sharing My Story

Ever since I had started feeling better, I had this desire to share my health story with the public. I had no idea how I would do that though. A friend of mine had just started blogging and that gave me an idea: maybe I should blog about my health journey. I didn't know if anyone would even be interested, but I figured it was worth a try. I have absolutely loved blogging, and I'm pleased to say that people are actually interested in my story!

Celebrating!

March 2013: A Lot Can Happen In One Year

March was an exciting month. At the beginning of March, I attended a special day at Iowa State University for students wanting to go into food science or human nutrition majors. It was very interesting, and it made me even more confident about going to ISU and becoming a dietitian.
The middle of March brought spring break. As you might remember from last spring break, I ended up in the hospital. Spring break of 2013 was completely different. I worked over 40 hours at both my daycare job and babysitting Lucy and Collin. I was completely exhausted by the time Friday of spring break came, but it was a good kind of tired. On the first anniversary of me being hospitalized, my mom and I went to the coffee shop at the hospital to celebrate how far I had come in a year.
The end of March finished up a great month with a great event: I hit my goal weight! That meant that I could start jogging again. I had been dreaming (and saving money) about a wild pair of Asics running shoes, and now I could finally get them!

April 2013: You Never Know How Strong You Are....

I bought my dream running shoes on April 1, and started using them the next day. I was going to do the Couch 2 5k program, which I would highly recommend to anyone who wants to get started running. I'll never forget my first one-minute run; it was a scene straight out of Chariots of Fire! I enjoyed running three times a week in my new shoes and workout clothes. Running was the last item to be crossed off my wellness bucket list.

My dream running shoes: Asics Gel
Nossa Tri 8

 I woke up one morning, April 12 to be exact, feeling completely normal. I sat down for breakfast, which I oddly remember was a yogurt and granola parfait, and took three bites. BAM. Instant stomach pain. BAM. Extreme fullness. I tried to stay calm as I assessed the situation. Was the yogurt dairy-free? Yes. Was the granola gluten-free and honey-free? Yes. Was I constipated? No. Had I taken my medicine the night before? Yes. I knew I couldn't stop at just three bites so I forced the rest of my breakfast down. When I say forced, I mean it. I had that after-Thanksgiving-meal-where-you're-so-full-you-can't-move-and-think-you're-going-to-burst feeling. What was going on? I told my mom about this, and we decided to increase my Miralax since constipation could cause problems like this. I tried to not worry, but I had never experienced this feeling before. What could possibly be wrong now?

TO BE CONTINUED.......

"You can go the distance/you can run the mile/you can walk straight through hell with a smile"

August 2012: The Fight is Done; The War is Won

August 2012

Finally...the post I've been waiting to write since I started blogging! I was so excited for "Celebration Weekend" with my family. Leading up to the big weekend, my grandparents sent me a nice card and a generous check to celebrate with me. They wanted me to buy a cross necklace, and I found a beautiful necklace along with a ring with footprints on the front and the lines "it was then that You carried me" etched on the inside. Since my grandpa introduced me to that poem, I thought it was only fitting that I used his money to buy it.



boating

At church

 Celebration Weekend started on Saturday, August 4. My family and I went to the downtown Farmer's Market and enjoyed ourselves immensely...until the heavens opened and we were heavily rained on! After the Farmer's Market, we went out for lunch at Biaggi's, an Italian restaurant that has delicious gluten-free food. I made sure I ate exactly half of the pasta so I didn't feel too full. After lunch, we hit TCBY for frozen yogurt/sorbet before seeing The Dark Knight Rises in the IMAX theater. After dinner at home, we went bowling. I'm a terrible bowler, but I had fun laughing at myself anyways. It was especially fun when glow-in-the-dark bowling started! I went to bed that night feeling great and very thankful. The next day, Sunday, my parents placed flowers on our church's altar to thank God for the return of my health. I also played a piece on the piano for offering and my pastor read a prayer of thanksgiving that I had written. Several church members greeted me after the service with hugs and kind words. After church, we had updated family portraits taken before going to Big Creek for a pontoon ride. If you've never rented a pontoon before, I would highly recommend it! It's so peaceful and relaxing. The weather was absolutely perfect, and my family and I enjoyed laying out in the sun while lazily floating on the water. Our evening plans included grilling and mini-golfing. After we ate, my mom gave me a Willow Tree figure that she had been saving until I felt better. The figure is called "J'taime", which is French for "I love you". Mini-golfing was really fun! I am surprisingly much better at mini-golf than I am at bowling. It was the perfect weekend; there were several moments where I was shocked at how well I felt. I couldn't believe that I had finally made it to this point.

Willow Tree

The fun continued a few days later with the Tenth Avenue North and Toby Mac concert at the Iowa State Fair. The concert was August 9, and my birthday is August 10 so my parents included my ticket to the concert as a birthday present! It was an awesome concert! It was so great to listen to the songs by both artists that uplifted me and kept me going when I was so sick. The next day was my 17th birthday! I had a fun morning babysitting Lucy and Collin before my mom and I went to a bridal shower for a girl at our church. After the shower, my mom and I got manicures! We had so much fun. My birthday ended with homemade pizza at home, presents, and watching the 2012 summer Olympics in London. I was thoroughly spoiled with presents, but the best present of all couldn't be wrapped in a box: feeling well. I jokingly put a bow on my stomach and took a picture of me with the best present ever....a stomach that feels well! It was still amazing to me how well I felt. All I had known for 22 months was not feeling well. I was practically bouncing off the walls because I had so much energy! Since my stomach had so many problems for so long, it almost felt weird and strange to not feel chronically sick to my stomach. I felt like a completely new human being!

Best birthday present ever!

 I wanted to get back in shape. Walking on my NordicTrack after eating helped me feel less out of the breath, but I still had difficulty carrying my own laundry basket from my room down three flights of stairs. A friend recommended going to see a physical therapist who might have some ideas on how to get back in shape. I met with a doctor who suggested I see the therapist in her office twice a week. The first appointment was scheduled for the next week.


Finally!

 August 15, 2012 was the day that kept me going through my health journey. I think I mentioned this a few times in previous posts, but it's time to elaborate a little bit. Around the time of my surgery (September 2011), I came up with the idea to get a Build-A-Bear after I felt better, dress it in scrubs, and name it after the doctor who got me feeling better. Of course, I should have known it wasn't going to be that easy. For 11 months I dreamed about the day when I would make that Build-A-Bear. I felt sad every time I walked past Build-A-Bear Workshop in the mall, and I was jealous of the people (mostly kids) walking around the mall with the iconic Build-A-Bear box. I had even been saving some of the money my grandparents sent me after my surgery for this bear.This was another "wellness bucket list" day that I was too scared to plan in case "something else" happened but after a whole weekend of celebrating my return to health, I figured it was time. I wanted to drive out to the mall--since driving was something I wasn't able to do when I was sick. Those of you who have been to Build-A-Bear know the routine. I picked out the carcass (what else would you call it?!) of a dark haired bear that was created on August 21, 19-something. I thought that was a funny coincidence since August 21 was the day when I got sick with mono. I stuffed the bear, put his heart in, and gave him an air bath before naming him. It took me a while to come up with the perfect name, but in the end I combined the first and/or last names of Dr. S. (my pediatrician), Dr. D.S. (my first GI), Dr. Di (my second and current GI), and Dr. R. (my surgeon). I added M.D., D.O. on the end of the name to make it sound more official. My mom came up with the cute idea to add black dress shoes with the scrubs in honor of Dr. R.'s sense of fashion. The store carried the black shoes, but I had to order the scrubs online. After it was all said and done, I cried tears of happiness in the hallway of the mall. I couldn't believe that I had my bear! It all seemed like a wonderful dream; my mom said that I had woken up from a nightmare.

There he is!

 A few days later, I started on the next item on my wellness bucket list. I had a follow-up appointment with Dr. Di the next week. When this appointment was made, I had just been hospitalized. I was amazed at how far I had come in four months. I made it a goal to take cookies and handmade thank you notes to the doctors and their staff who got me feeling better. It just so happened that I needed a TB test and a physical for my job at the daycare. Nurse T. squeezed me in Dr. S.'s busy schedule the day before my appointment with Dr. Di. This would be the perfect opportunity to give Dr. S. his thank you note. I set to work on crafting beautiful cards for my doctors. I also wanted to make cards for Nurse. T. and Dr. R. As a little reminder of me, I wanted to insert of picture of me with a sign saying "Thanks Dr. _____" in the thank you note. On a beautiful Sunday afternoon, my mom and I went to the lake (the same lake that we had walked around countless times when I was sick) to take pictures.
 August 21, 2012 was a special day. Not only was it my sister's birthday, but it was also the second anniversary of me getting sick. Last year, I was crushed on this day because I had been sick for one year. This year, however, I was thankful and excited about how great I felt. I may have been sick for 22 months, but I would take 22 months over 24 months.


End result

Very messy table!

 The next day was the big cookie bake for my doctors! In three hours, my mom and I baked chocolate chip cookies, peanut butter cookies, chocolate cherry cookies, rice krispies, and three giant chocolate chip cookies for my doctors. The house smelled amazing! I had been looking forward to the day for a long time and it lived up to every expectation! After baking cookies, we went to my first appointment with the physical therapist. It turns out the therapist specialized in visceral massage therapy, especially targeting the stomach and colon. The therapist was hopeful that some massage therapy would naturally help my stomach and colon move more. I was unsure of the whole concept at first, but the massage actually felt really good!

Cookie delivery day!

 Thursday, August 23, was labeled Cookie Delivery Day. My mom and I packed up Dr. S.'s thank you note and big cookie, Nurse T.'s card, and the tray of cookies for the staff. I also made a tray of cookies for the third floor (where I was hospitalized) and a special cookie for Dr. R. I drove the very familiar path to Dr. S.'s office. The receptionist recognized us, as always, and we briefly waited in the waiting room. I've never had that much fun in a doctor's office before! Nurse T. was thrilled with all the cookies and she had S., my favorite lab tech, come over and say hi. While we were waiting for Dr. S. to come in, I marveled at the fact that we were in the same room that we usually are when I visit my pediatrician but this time was different. When I was in this room for the past 22 months, I was beyond sick. I was exhausted, nauseous, pale, in pain, and I just wanted to feel better. This time, I was bouncing with energy, my stomach felt great, I had a healthy glow, I wasn't in any pain, and I felt a million times better! Dr. S. was so excited and happy that I was feeling better. He was also very touched by my giant cookie and card. He kept repeating, "you are too kind!" I wasn't expecting him to read my heartfelt thank you note in front of me so I was surprised when he looked up at me with tears in his eyes and gave me a huge hug. My mom took pictures of me with Nurse T. and Dr. S. before we left. Cookie Delivery Day wasn't over yet though; next we walked across the street to Dr. R.'s office. There was some extreme deja vu going on as I walked through the waiting room to the front desk. I flashed back to September 2011 as I sat, freezing cold and in so much pain, waiting to see the surgeon. I was amazed at how much progress, and how much I had been through, since the last time I was in this waiting room. I dropped the thank you note and cookie off with the receptionist and left the eerily familiar waiting room. I was impressed at how well my mom and I knew our way around the hospital as we made our way to the pediatric floor. I had another deja vu moment when the elevator doors opened to reveal the colorful and welcoming entrance of the pediatric floor. It was almost hard to believe that I was hospitalized on this floor just five months ago. As my mom and I drove home, I was filled with so many emotions. Usually on our trips home from the hospital, both of us were upset and my mom was on the phone with either my dad or grandpa. This time, we had actually made wonderful memories at the hospital!
 Day Two of Cookie Delivery Day came the next morning, August 23, when I had my follow up with my GI doctor, Dr. Di. Once again, I drove the familiar path to the hospital. While waiting in the waiting room, I thought of everything that had happened in the year (almost to the exact date) since I had first seen Dr. Di. I had been referred to him last August after my first GI doctor ran out of ideas. I had a second endoscopy and my first colonoscopy. I had my gall bladder removed. I went to hell and back-also known as the University of Iowa hospital. I had colonic constipation. I was hospitalized. I was diagnosed with IBS and gastroparesis. Now I was healthy! Nurse J., the nurse in the office, was happy to see me and hear that I was feeling better. He was also overjoyed with the cookies.
He said, "I've talked to your mom so much that it's kind of like we're family." I couldn't agree more! Shortly after Nurse J. left with the cookies, Dr. Di came in. He told me that I looked great, especially since I was always very pale whenever I came in. As for my medicine, he wanted to keep everything the same. He was very grateful for the tray of cookies and joked that I could come back every week with cookies. I would gladly do that! He was also grateful for his special cookie and card; he said that a lot of their patients and parents complain that he isn't doing enough. Both my mom and I repeatedly thanked him for everything he has done, but he humbly told us that we did all the work. After the appointment we made a follow up with the receptionist, who can always recognize me and knows my
 name, Nurse J. was looking over her shoulder and telling her to make the appointment when he was in the office.
"Sarah....you are beautiful. I know I'm not supposed to tell a lady to gain weight, but you should." Nurse J. complimented me. We all said goodbye and another round of thank you's before leaving.

My best friends :)

 I had the greatest feeling ever after two successful cookie delivery days. I felt like I was on top of the world. It still didn't seem possible that I had finally made it. I was 100% healthy and checking things off my wellness bucket list. Another item on my bucket list was to have a sleepover with my two dear friends. We had been planning a sleepover for over a year, but I was never healthy enough for it. I decided this sleepover would be my birthday party for the year, and we had a blast! We walked at the lake, and stayed up late watching movies and gossiping. The next day, we went to TCBY for frozen yogurt/sorbet and did some shopping. Both of my friends were so loyal while I was sick, and it was great to celebrate with them.
 August 30, 2012 marked my first day of my junior year of high school AND the start of my first year of high school that I was healthy for!

You might be expecting a big finish for the end of the my healthy journey. Of course, now that I'm healthy and done all these fun things to celebrate, why wouldn't it be the end? Alas....

TO BE CONTINUED.....